Sunday, October 10, 2010

Running water ran so hot, to the point it felt like ice
It overflowed, to drown this soul, wouldn't that be so nice
Glaciers melt, mountains move, no mirror knows my name
Hopeless it seems, for time to stand still, nothing is the same

What a wonder it would be, if I could turn off my thoughts
To close my eyes and into a deep sleep take off
But my mind's not that simple, what I know I can't erase
Fighting those "snakes with knives" I won't win that race

My heart is full of sorrows, my pain is manifest
My legs walking in circles, my eyes could use some rest
My soul weighs so heavy, my hands tremble and shake
My words are a stutter, my mind's seeded with hate

Convenience, I fit your plan
Ignorant, I was to the facts
I was an option, you were my only choice
I can't stop crying, to the sound of your voice

Who knows, how long, these days, will culminate
I'll try, but for how long, to-day, we're testing fate
The water runs deep and my blood's boiling
In between tears I see someone's truth unfolding

Sweet sorrow, with a vengeance you have returned
Will my compassion be kicked to the curb?
I want to move on and say all is well
But with each burning tear I wish you to hell

Trees stand strong, roots run deep, engulf me, would you please
Leaves of fall, so beautiful, come bury me, oh come bury me
Sun so bright, with your heat, turn me to ashes so I may sleep
Wind come strong, blow me away, spread my ashes across city streets


I want you to know, but I don't want to have to tell you
I want you to understand without me saying a word
I want you to hear my thoughts without me speaking
Is that too much to ask of you, Is that too much to wish for?

The truth it hurts, more sometimes than the lying
And truth be told, there are things I haven't told you
My anger stems from years of so much crying
And I fake these smiles for the pain to be ignored

It hurts to think I know you'll never truly know me

My hearts walled off, there's no sense in trying
Most days I wake, to a stranger's reflection
My mind's made up, there's no use in fighting

I keep shutting you out, and I've hidden the key
Actions speak louder than words, come find me

I can be very frustrating, difficult, and senseless it seems
But this is the only life I have, and no one will protect me 'cept me

I made you out to be per-fect
I made you out to be a fairy-tale
I made you out to be my sa-vior
I allowed myself to be so-frail

I fell without a net

Like Alice falling for hours
Excitement surmounted
But you weren't there