Saturday, August 27, 2011


I am not built for this stay at home mom business.  I am bored out of my mind.  It probably doesn't help that I have very little energy and each day is different from the previous as far as feeling sick or not.  It sucks not having a diagnosis and having all the symptoms.  I really need to find a neurologist.  February can't come soon enough because we seriously need to have all this insanity of not knowing where we will be living etc.  I feel guilty not being able to play with my kids the way I want.  I know everyone will say the same thing, I'm already doing so much for them, but that doesn't make me feel any better; sorry.  Ugh, sometimes I wish I could just make the weight disappear, but a big part of me is afraid that even if that happens, I will still be sick.  Today I couldn't move my legs again and my eyes keep going cross-eyed.  Its frustrating, but at least I'm done with taking boards.  I survived that much, if only the scores were as instantaneous as the practice exams.  Impatient isn't my middle name, it's my first and it kind of sucks.


  1. I am sorry, Nadira, that you are having a bad time...I wish speedy results for your boards (I bet you did quite well) and jeez, I hope you get a diagnosis!

  2. i didn't know you weren't feeling well doll. i'm so sorry you're having such a tough time. I definitely feel you regarding the anxiety of not knowing where you're moving for x years. It's a crazy time. I'm praying for you, hon.

  3. things could be worse! it's ok tho, I've been blessed w an understanding family that try to be there for me as much as possible <3 I wouldn't be able to do all this without them! Or without caring friends like you :)