"Day 2 of Week 2. I missed yesterday because I pretty much had a massive panic attack in the am because I was so bloated that my brand new pants didn't fit. Talk about depressing upon depression. My excuse to them, I had a massive migraine. Thankfully, the bloating is gone and I can be on my merry way.
At the prison, only one door is allowed to be opened at one time in any area with more than one door. (I guess the latter of that sentence was a given, eh?) Anyway, I can't see how you can ever get accustomed to waiting as someone buzzes you in through a door. This is especially true when you're in an area with inmates just staring at you because well they have nothing else do to!
It's my second week and I'm a little more at ease with the signing in and showing my badge to the guards upon entering. To avoid any awkwardness I say good morning to everyone that I pass. I know what you're think, "Oh em gee, she is voluntarily saying good morning to STRANGERS??" But to be frank, these people that work here are different. They're not your everyday strangers!!
So I had a 3 hr break between my stranger comment and now. I saw 3 inmates in the transfer and receiving area (T&R). You know how some people just look crazy, or there's something significantly off about them. Ladies and gentlemen, meet Rodnee. (The name has been changed of course). Well, Rodnee is a schizophrenic that sees sparkly silver shineys and hears voices talking to him inside his head. They don't tell him what to do nor do they criticize. Matter of fact they help him play cards! Go freaking figure. Anyway, I mention Rodnee because there was something so "off" about him and I just couldn't pinpoint it out. Then I realized, he was a child in a grown man's body. He has been puppy pathetic eyes and looks at you like a terrified kid who's about to get his ass whooped on. I kid you not, I was hypnotized. Not in a fatal attraction hypnotized. More of a I'm sorry life handed you these circumstances type of hypnotized. If nothing else, I have a rekindled want to work in child psychiatry and get them before they end up like Rodnee. By the way, because I know you're curious, he is serving time for throwing a rock at a window. It's considered shooting a deadly missile. Yeah I know.